My relationship with India is what I would classify as "complicated" on Facebook. Part of me loves it here. I love how patriotic all of the citizens are... always asking me how I like "their" country. In America this concept is relatively unheard of, at least in my opinion. America is not "my" country. America is where I live, where I was born and where I grew up. But to me, it is everyone's country since it is inhabited by so many different races, nationalities, etc. The feeling in India is so different. In America, many people want to travel and explore the world. And while these people in India exist, most people have no desire to leave the country they love. They see no reason to.
And while I love India, so many of the people, the culture, the food and the sights, I also hate India. I hate how many people are living on the street and the government could care less. I hate how disgusting it smells and how I inhale 10 packets of cigarettes a day due to the pollution. I hate being stared at like I am a zoo attraction, although I know it is mostly harmless. And I hate being charged up to 7 times the actual price, just because my skin is light and I am thus assumed to be rich.
I was really unsure of what to expect when I first came here. I was told India was spiritual, I would be able to practice yoga everywhere and the culture is intoxicating. While I have met people of many religions and few, if any, who are not religious or spiritual in some way, I did not have a spiritual experience. You cannot do yoga here because you cannot breathe the air. So that was out of the question. While I have grown increasingly more patient the more time I spend here, it has been a true test of my ability to keep sane (far from spiritual) as I am crushed up against tons of other people in sweltering heat whether I am in the bus I ride every day to work or the train I ride on the weekends.
And yet, despite all that I hate about India, I do want to come back. When that will happen, I am not sure. There is just something about this place that despite everything that should put me in a bad mood, I have learned to ignore it or just to be patient. Somehow, the chaos of the entire country just works. This is not to say that things are still not terribly wrong. Street children still dissapear for various reasons on a regular basis and the police dont have time or care to help. Or maybe they just know it is a lost cause. Whatever the reason, India is in need of endless improvements. Luckily, there are thousands of willing people in India who are working at NGOs and related organizations just for that reason. Maybe it is this hope for the future paired with a strong connection to the past that keeps the country moving... and keeps me wanting to come back.
And with a week left before I leave for Mumbai, I thought it would be fitting that I read a book about an Australian who goes to Mumbai and lives there. Just by reading the back of Shantaram I was intrigued but the excitement that the book seemed to hold.

India has also taught me about something else I have yet to have much experience with--defending the US. I remember back in my first semester sophomore year when Professor Stephen Krasner came to speak to my American Foreign Policy class. As a man who has worked in diplomacy under the Bush Administration, he told those of us that were considering diplomacy as a career path that we should be aware how difficult it is to defend America on a regular basis. Here I met my challenge. He came in the form of a tall, 25 year old Greek who resembles a slimmer version of the men in 300--Angelos.
Interested in sparking a conflict with me from the start due to his grounded disposition against the US, one of the first times I spoke with him was about 9/11. Considering he just finished watching Zeitgeist, a conspiracy movie about 9/11, he was convinced that Bush and Cheney planned the attacks. Now it might be because I was brainwashed in America or I simply felt the need to defend "my" country, but I disagreed with him completely. I tried to make him see that I was not a fan of Bush myself and I was well aware of the countless mistakes he made during his administration. This does not mean he planned 9/11, however, at least in my opinion. I even resorted to dropping facts about Osama Bin Laden's life and the creation of Al Qaeda to prove my point. He didn't believe me. In one of our most recent arguments, he even went so far as to say I frustrated him because I was like a gullible 10-year old. Too far.
So while I have been exploring India, I have also been practicing my skills as a diplomat (a job I am strongly considering pursuing in the future). And as I try to be the best representative I can, other Americans have been scratching the reputation I have been trying to build (a new American guy just arrived and would fit quite nicely into an American Pie movie).
And that is where I am at right now. Last day of work is on Wednesday (!!!!). Until then...